"She's not coming back, she's not coming back, she's not coming back..." I'm repeating these words over and over in my head as if I'm trying to convince myself of something I didn't already know.
But what does that mean - "She's not coming back"? That I have to forget about her? That I have to move on?
She and I had a long conversation yesterday, and she doesn't understand how I can still be so nice towards her even after all she's done to me. Maybe I'm just in denial (and I don't think I am - then again that's what being in denial is, right?).
Truth is I don't know why I'm still nice to her... Maybe cuz we still share a lot? And I wouldn't want all this to end in worst terms than they already are?
I think I gotta change my life, dramatically! Dramatically enough to forget her, the house, the dog and the life we had built together.
I've applied for a few jobs lately and hopefully I'll get one of them and start forgetting!
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